Feeling Determined

I don’t think that I am the only person (probably by a long way) that has let what is going on in the world get the better of them. Over the last few weeks I have been in a cycle of starting off the day well, getting getting to to around mid day, reading something online that upsets me and then eating way more than I should of the wrong kinds of food. Then feeling bad about what I have done and vowing that I will do better the next day only to repeat the same thing again.

This has not only been bad for my health as I have been feeling stressed and I have put on about 5lbs since lock down has begun (although I am really surprised that I have not put on more with the amount of snacking that I have been doing). It has also meant that I have struggled to get anything done that I would normally do, normally I unwind on an evening by walking, writing or drawing but it is really difficult to be creative while you are feeling overwhelmed with stress.

I am trying my best this week to get back to a more normal way of dealing with things, now that the lockdown measures have been relaxed a little bit I am able to walk a bit more. I am getting up early in the morning so that I can go for a long walk while there are not too many people around. This means that I am feeling a bit more relaxed through the rest of the morning (although this may just be because I am really tired).

This is still very much a work in progress but I am hoping that I can continue to work on this over the next few days and weeks to get back to a more normal schedule.

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